Professionally I wanted to and became a Philanthropist. That was the hardest job I’d ever had with no desire to do it again. I remember the wisdom from a friend who said, “It would be better if we lived in a world where we didn’t need philanthropy.” I’m glad to get over my Santa Claus fetish.
With relationships I’ve had three loves in my life. That’s enough, as I chose difficult men to love. How I got that wiring I don’t know, but I like a quote my second love said to me, “If it was easy anyone could do it.” Even finding True Love was the final icing on the cake, but even that was fleeting.
Marriage was cool, more work than I anticipated and grateful I didn’t have children. I didn’t have a village to raise them in and know the scars of divorce are not worth doing that to a child.
Health was never taken for granted, I’ve had eight memorable near death experiences:
- Childhood Pneumonia - First out of body experience
- Cancer twice – Hodgkins Lymphoma: 1x Stage 3B, Chemo, 2x Stage 1A, Paleo diet
- Two airplane emergencies - Cockpit fire over Calcutta and engine failure into Iceland
- One Abduction - Out of gas at night, picked up by a good ole boy with guns.
- One 40 ft drop off a sheer mountain face, concussion and two broken ankles
- And you never forget the time a gun is pointed in your face - avoid addicts.
Being the fourth child of a schizophrenic mother made childhood a navigation of reality. At 15, I sat with my father as he took his last breath. Watching friends die with the power to consciously give up their last breath was a beautiful witness of conscious choice.
My gullible nature required that I master discernment. From aliens to zero point I had to make decisions on my beliefs and live accordingly. The toughest challenge learning how to meditate and listen. In 2013 it meant leaving my birth country so I could live healthier and learn more. I've read so many pages to understand the formula I was given as a child:
Knowledge + Experience = Wisdom
Now I understand finding your own purpose in life is paramount. Otherwise you are living someone else’s. The electronic hypnosis of television killed my dreaming way before marijuana did. Spoon fed by Hollywood story lines of shallow lives, inserted with sugar commercial cravings and the pseudo spirituality of religion (and yes I mean all religions) to keep us locked down and controllable. I feel my greatest accomplishment was to break free from that matrix.
Mother Ayahuasca spoke loudest to me when I was sober and driving in traffic. Her messages were directive to make clear changes and I did my best. It’s funny to hear my ancestors grousing that made me giggle, seems even in the after life you can still be petty. And I’m glad to hear aliens have a sense of humour. I can work with that.
Travel is just more luggage to drag around through false security checks to see another sunset, dance party, artistic or natural wonder. I’ve seen enough of them and I’m good. But Burning Man has been the best experience on the planet I’ve had so far. And my last endeavour is to make one more trip to the playa at Afrikaburn.
I plan to work my way there by offering deeply discounted counselling sessions via Skype to help you get as free of the matrix as much as possible. Secondly we're launching the Knowledge Package to help you answer some of the big questions you have.
If you air miles you can share please hook me up. Will be in SE Asia till mid April and looking for housesitting or a spare bedroom until then. I can offer raw vegan desserts and healthy snacks, story telling and even kinky play tutorials. And of course your donations are always appreciated.
Enjoy every day.